Just My Depressing Week!
This past week was a bad week for me- having a lot of chest pains today which is something new. I was born with a heart condition called “aortic regurjitation” (msp)- and today was the very first time when I thought I may have to go to the emergency room with chest pains. Hell, I am only 37, I shouldn’t have to worry about these things!
I was home alone with the kiddos- Jeff was on a bike Run with the local HOGS group to raise funds for the local children’s cancer center when my chest really started hurting. I checked my pulse for about 30 minutes…and my heart was still beating!
You know…it is a BITCH when even though you pay over $100 a week for health insurance, but your deductable is so big that you cannot afford to get the tests done that you need to live! But, I am OK— other than I am so swollen with water weight that I cannot bend me knees to walk! Damn this insurance! I have 4 children to live for… today was the first time that I thought of what would happen if I wasn’t around!
So.. this week I put on so much water weight that I look like I am 10 months preggos! I got on the scale today and it went up 6 lbs! Jeff noticed me limping around tonight as I was cooking dinner and asked me what was wrong… I told him that my legs were swollen again. Of course he asked me why I wasn’t taking my meds. Well, I have to choose between my depression meds & my hearts meds & groceries… which one would anyone choose?
He told me “we will work it out”, which again, makes me feel guilty! Why should we sufer finacially because I have a bad heart- WHEN we are supoose to have coverage? Our co-pay is $5,000.000 before our insurance with pay a dime! Who can afford that out of pocket???
IDK— I am just ranting, I know this has no relation to weight loss but……it is what I have been going through lately. Hell, even one of my best girl-friends who is on Buddy Slim hasn’t seen me lately because of the water weight! (Sorry April… that is why we didn’t get together this week). IDK- Jeff said that we will find a way to get my heart meds… I am just mad because if we pay $400 a month for insurance- why should we have to come up with another $200 for meds?????
Something I am thinking about!
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I added you as a buddy…and I will pray for you! That God will provide! My husband just started selling health insurance…and it is crazy! The people that need it don’t qualify for it??? We live in NC too…I will show him your blog and see if he has any suggestions!
Blessings!
I am so sorry that you’re going through that! I can’t even imagine paying that much!
We’re in the military now, getting out in a year and half… and I think that is the scariest thing ever wondering how we’re going to be able to afford insurance on our own.
It’s just not right that someone should have to choose between groceries or much needed medicine!
Oh don’t worry girl, it will happen, the weight will come off, & your insurance worries will go away, stay STRONG, 1 day & 1 lb at a time we can & will do this, i’m down only 1 lb. this week =( UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! call me im off to work won’t get off till 11pm this evening but overtime is overtime, bye girl!
